Thursday, June 07, 2007 2:57 PM
For that old faded midnight , that frightened but an hour

ITS THE GOOD LIFE!
WOW. You know you hear about this kind of thing a lot, from stories people tell, and optimistic encouragements from friends and family--but you never really prepare yourself to actually witness it, and witness it directly! Success. Emily Dickinson chose her words carefully when she stated--- "Success is counted sweetest, by those who ne'er succeed." Okay its not fair to say I've never succeed, but to be painfully truthful to myself and you all, I think everything else that could come close to "succeeding" were all small and trivial accomplishments. So to acquire something, so serious , so once assumed to be impossible, so defining--Damn near heartbreaking, but heartbreaking in a good sense--if you can follow that ;). Guys, today I found out I passed a very very very important exam! This exam maybe to the other people taking it , might have been just a hard exam--but to me it was a sign. It was a sign that, whenever --in the future--I put full on effort into something i believed to be absolutely unattainable, and lean on God for the rest, regardless of how difficult it seems or impossible, it is CERTAINLY possible, and can definetly be attained. I hope you don't think I'm bragging when I say that I didn't only pass but my score was top 2 %. If you knew me personally (or atleast have been keeping up with my blogging about my scholarly pessimistic outlooks on grades and exams) you know that this is truly a conquest.
Damn, so they weren't kidding when they said " you get out, what you put in"?
BUT Remember Readers, (^-^)whether you choose to acknowledge this or not ---everything comes with God.
If you put in all your effort, and you pray to God--the impossible is possible, all will fall into place. God as my witness, please believe me when I tell you I used to hear such things and would be like--"yea, that doesn't apply to me--I have bad luck , why bother trying if I believe there's even a possibility of failure"<--- If thats not dedication to failure...I don't know what is.
So anyway-- now that worrying in the beginning before the result feels like "it all lasted but an hour" man --when it was really---Oh I don't even want to think of it. But it doesn't matter. Its over.
Thank God.
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