Tuesday, April 10, 2007 9:33 AM
Don't you forget it
Thou know'st 'tis common; all that lives must die, Passing through nature to eternity. HAMLET: Ay, madam, it is common.
I can picture myself up until the age of--lets say maybe 30 --but not beyond that (IF THAT-even).
It really has nothing to do with age in the terms of getting "old" and that superficial fear. Ever since I was little I only thought that far up the ladder. I don't know why but when it comes to life, I don't see myself living that long.I don't mean to sound morbid, because to me this isn't depressing, and don't worry I'm not predicting anything, because I know it isn't for sure; but its just this constent knawing feeling of an imminent end.
Imminent End-- I like that.
In the Quran, it says somewhere:"God will not give someone more than they can handle".
Now that set aside, I know I wouldn't be able to handle what life in time could give me inevitably. Far too many things to share, so this time I won't.
Its not a sense of looming destruction, and its not a sense of fear that all this provokes; its more a sense of warning and a constant blinking light of caution , that these thoughts insight.
Mind you, this is nothing new on my part--I've always felt this way.
I'm normal;a normal, healthy , generally happy human being, I have goals set out and a great education laid out ahead of me--I think it would be a tragedy if this was all true.
I dont' know why I'm thinking this. I don't even know why I'm sharing this kind of stuff in my blogger.
Maybe I'm just hoping that by sharing this--I'd be jinxing myself and the opposite will happen.
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